Suddenly it’s not visceral Not as raw not as miserable I hope no one hears themselves in this If they do they should know it’s not my current emotions It’s been put in your line of sight How I ran in circles out of spite Sometimes still petty sometimes I’m still sore But I don’t mean the mean parts anymore No one’s been following No one knows the story but me It could be worse You could be lost You'll never find a place where you're safe and sound I hope you find comfort in the people you've found

I could have seen you Hiding behind a tree I could have met you a little less awkwardly Looking back drives me mad But I've been doing it lately even when I screwed it up I wish it was someone else I wish it was you No matter where we started We'd always end up here I go too far We could have talked until the time I’m writing this at Without what I went through And yours was worse or just as bad We left ourselves so easily I said nothing to face it You weren’t the kind I am I guess you were adjacent I wanted to take over When your eyes showed you were gone I bet you thought you could hide it I watched you and you were wrong If there really was no one else And we really talked that late I suppose I still would have discovered Where we deviate I was going 10 miles in a slow-as-hell car With the south street freaks I told you about before I spaced out and wondered what factors led here and what could have avoided this and it never was you, no it couldn't have lasted the same things unresolved not any faster I’d always be here no matter what my past is there will always be a difference We were close after the fact we were close kind of late Past when we could have used each other we couldn’t carry each others weight I couldn't blame it on you Other things were the cause If I asked you where you were then You'd ask me where I was I could have come through No matter where we started I’d always end up here No matter where we started I’d always end up here We could have had it all and lost it We’d always end up here We could have had it all and lost it We’d always end up here

Overclocking and my energy is spent Still don't feel consistent with the median Passing as someone assumed to be competent They're so forgiving of the ways I say "I'm human" It’s 3am and I should pass out I could stay in the fog or melt in the sun I’m in a fog/ my devices I’m in a fog/left to malfunction I could stand to be less obsessed with the little things that can't be addressed now Being vague while I still can Can't explain my situation cause they won't understand Ooh you can’t take me anywhere You you can’t take me anywhere You can’t take me if you stop me from talking it’s better that way Ooh you can’t take me anywhere You you can’t take me anywhere I won’t even fight Tell me what to say I should check in more or at all on my family, my siblings, my cousins, my friends Maybe I would be like this less if I kept the subject on them not be in a fog I need a distraction Or my own devices Are left to malfunction Because you know that when it does Ooh you can’t take me anywhere You you can’t take me anywhere You can’t take me if you stop me from talking it’s better that way Ooh you can’t take me anywhere You you can’t take me anywhere I won’t even fight Tell me what to say Because I cannot say what’s keeping me from asking for your company It’s nothing quite as simple as just irresponsibility Teasing it so long by now I’m leaving little subtlety But nobody can tell and it’s better that way) I cannot say what’s keeping me from asking for your company It’s nothing quite as simple as just irresponsibility Teasing it so long by now I’m leaving little subtlety But nobody can tell and it’s better that way You you can’t take me anywhere You you can’t take me anywhere You can’t take me if you stop me from talking it’s better that way Ooh you can’t take me anywhere You you can’t take me anywhere No you can’t take me Even if I want you to You can’t take me there

Claim that everybody else got the world wrong except for you And I gotta hope you said that jokingly, at least half jokingly, otherwise... Well, I can’t go into specifics that's when things start to get murky And I found if I think about it I almost pass out in the street Though I could see it from your point of view I don't want to burn the world down if we need to then i'll join you but I need to put myself first I'm just trying to make it through I don't want to burn the world down You can light yourself on fire but I don't wanna get burned Say I stopped pretending to have no bleeding heart for a while There are still reasons I keep these things from falling into the light (the heat cuts through) Why would I unlearn everything I worked on Why would I make that part harder to hide Clearly that’s worked so well for you I'm not sure whether that's a lie Ahs Though I could see it from your point of view I don't want to burn the world down if we need to then i'll join you but I need to put myself first I'm just trying to make it through I don't want to burn the world down You can light yourself on fire but I don't wanna get burned I can’t tie it together I can’t reconcile I can’t swallow my pride and swallow my bile I won’t keep up I won’t keep track Even then It’s getting hard to tell what you’re even saying anymore And again I have to get myself alone so I can put it in my own words Very well I mean everybody is somebody else’s radical Even then If I’m around you you’re just too much Though I could see it from your point of view I don't want to burn the world down if we need to then i'll join you but I need to put myself first I'm just trying to make it through I don't want to burn the world down You can light yourself on fire but I don't wanna get burned

I can’t call myself the stable person in this place where Everyone I see looks like a hopeless case But I’ve been told not to listen to anyone Whether they’re right or wrong Just let the night go on I’m going out of my way to say you lost me Space out strategically when you’re taking philosophy When they said don't let anyone indoctrinate you they meant your kind But you have that in mind the dust on this couch triggers my allergies I told you to keep me here even if I plead Honey you can't make me stay while I cough up a lung As long as I don't start to think I belong Cause I need one last time having the time of my life Before it’s all downhill, it doesn’t feel like a height Baby it's really the city kid in me, Saying you’re nothing like what I’m supposed to be There’s too much potential all gone to waste That’s at least what city people say I’m willing to press down I’m willing to wait I wouldn’t have to worry if I could keep you away Every single time I space out and try To think how I’d go and hit the industry in stride I notice how you're talking not caring if you're Presentable Respectable Sometimes It’s almost like you exist in a void If so I honestly wish that I could join But you float and I need a ground underneath me Maybe because it never was And the buzz from my phone keeps pulling me in and maybe I'm being rude, oh that's true isn't it YOU can't influence me if I don't listen I'll leave if I think that I might be convinced Cause I need one last time to have the time of my life It’s downhill from here it doesn’t feel like a height Baby it's really the city kid in me, This is not who I was brought up to be there’s too much potential all gone to waste That’s at least what city people say Hoping no one around is lying in wait I wouldn’t have to worry if I could keep you away You push the glacier through me I don’t know if I want this or not They say you will ruin me Like it’s not so inevitable So before I go unheard Before they see me like a ghost on Earth Let me go and try to be something more Let me press it down for as looong as I can I need one last time having the time of my life Before it’s all downhill, it doesn’t feel like a height Maybe it’s just the city kid in me But this is not who I was brought up to be there’s too much potential all gone to waste That’s at least what city people say I’m hoping no one around is lying in wait I wouldn’t have to worry if I could keep you away

I was trying to swim away but the current kept me still I was brought back to shore by sheer force of your will I would have given the whole coast a heart attack I’m not sure why you pulled me back But I wasn’t expecting for someone to be there I would not want their help but I have reasons to be scared They'll run us over, push us out so we can turn to dust Maybe there's a reason that the walls are containing us You had to convince me not to get up and leave For better or worse we still share our enemies And it could be me or one of us of the news as they're checking to see if it was someone they knew All the while wondering if anyone will be there I still stay with you because I have reasons to be scared They'll run us over light us on fire so we turn to dust Maybe there's a reason that the walls are containing us Maybe we should let them win maybe it’s time we lost They may never believe that it’s worth saving us Bringing words to a knife fight These are the things that keep me up at night No strength and outmatched in numbers We have no one else but each other They'll run us over light us on fire till we turn to dust Maybe there's a reason that the walls are containing us and it's hard to keep hearing reasons not to give up We’re the only ones that will ever keep saving us

Leaving when the popcorn runs out They’re leaving when they start to settle down I never expected them to stay But it always gets to me the same When the four of us were together in your car complaining about the way things will be and are I understood why no one listens to us we’re too intense and altogether too much Why would they care if they didn’t need to? I mean, why would I even want to care, if I didn’t need to? If it only hurt me Of all the things that I would have said I didn’t expect to be the only one left When I said you light yourselves on fire I didn’t mean For you to scatter the ashes across the Northeast Well, I have a proximity suit That or something in this 150 milligrams must do Separated you’re alive I haven’t seen you in ages Your biography’s now run a thousand pages Like Infinite Jest or some other behemoth That you read but people brag that they never finished Remember those lines about the burning building You quoted when you were absentmindedly monologuing? I still think about that though we haven’t talked You’ve been busy I’ve been miserable not cause you’re gone It’s cause I know there’s fire I feel it too The flames don't hurt me like they hurt you I'm not ignorant, I want to know just enough not to burn when the flames come I’ve already said that I’m not strong I’m not gonna keep this up that long Trying not to fall out of touch But I blink and I miss so much Please tell me anything I’d rather live through I’ll never be close nor would I want to The last thing I need Is needing you I promised myself maybe you matter now but you wouldn't if there was anyone more stable that came along Don’t you bet that I matter now but I wouldn't if somebody more stable came along I'll take you at your word that you’re better now It'll sounds so dramatic when I say it out loud Still the closest to 4 of us together again will be 3 of us 20 years from now I’m scared it’s me or really any of us I hope I’m too rich and busy to meet up The things we have in common don't get in my way If the flames catch up at least I can say I had a proximity suit So I could avoid this The last thing I need is missing you

the Boca evening entertainment Wonderwalls Kate Bush You can hear the point pass him by with the palm tree whoosh Singing a song I wished I heard when I was young I won’t go further but I wonder if he could tell something was wrong Escape’s irrelevant and by now I know that’s true It’s safer here the less people who have a clue I just need to keep a contact I apologize For my projection and for my desperate, awkward, glassy eyes I can’t let you know that you’re not alone We’re not parallel enough and we’ll forget about all this that’s all I know I came to your show and I drank water all night Jealous of some girl with my similar body type You didn’t take the stage as seriously as I can Try half as hard but you're twice as good as I am Then I saw you writing over things we can’t control I know exactly how you feel but you don't need to be told As long as I’m back in Boca that’s not in my hands It could be years before you hear and maybe understand I can’t let you know you’re not alone you wouldn't really want to know from me I’m well aware by now how it all appears I’ll take too long to explain all I can say to feel I feel the same ! Oh do I feel the same I feel the same I’m in a fog I feel the same I’m in a fog What a shame I’m in a fog I feel the same I’m in a fog I am right with you but we’re on our own Keep my distance and control I imagine getting close making those same intimate jokes I’ve made with everyone else on Earth I can't let you know you're not alone

By most standards I am fine I'm okay at least I’m not crying Specifics don’t matter even when they tend to linger Of course some things change While some things don’t get better I need to keep track of what goes where They still call me nice and I don’t mind But I’ve seen kindness and I don’t feel kind I just don’t go for drinks I don’t smoke I can barely gauge control I can't get it across right I need to translator for me Most times Well It’s a nice day outside It’s much better than it’s been It’s hard to stay outside Sunlight puts me out of commission I melt in the summertime Even when the weather's nice Throw myself into distractions While someone else's nighttime happens I keep saying I’ll be what somebody wants me to be but despite everything I've thought about I really don't know what that means Idly reorganizing my closet I still have to promise I'll be an asset to an employer ...As long as they don't hear this Swear I’ll be more than staring at the wall of the office when I know I should work Just need to reorder my priorities but I can't figure out what comes first when I ask whether the fog gets any lighter with time I get no answer Of course I know why I was told not to be so dramatic but that’s just what keeps me going I'd say I've been more aware but clearly my heart's still on my sleeve I was taught to question things but not change them just exist within them I would want to clarify but saying this much was too naive It’s such a nice day outside It’s nice but weirdly unsettling I shouldn’t act out about it It’s just another thing not connecting I’ll keep quiet in case I elaborate I've done too much no-context whining I'll make the most of what I can or nothing gets done and nothing happens I used to hope these songs would be covers Now I just hope things don't get worse I'm sorry I'm so fucking serious all the time But you will see me on a good day You will see me with control if the fog doesn’t swallow me up if the fog doesn’t swallow me whole